January 22, 2005
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午夜夢徊
有什麼比夢魘更可怕，更令人痛苦？那就是一段太美好的回憶。夢魘，你一覺醒來，不去想它，那就行了。一段太美好的回憶，卻揮不去、抹不掉；而你卻覺悟到不可能時光倒流、回到「那時候」，因而痛苦萬分。你可曾想過把它忘了？你卻忘不了，更捨不得忘記它。
今晚我又想起「她」了。不知道她現在生活是否快樂、讀書是否順利、有沒有偶爾跟我一樣想起中學的事情而睡不着。
- SwordAngel
Sleepless
What’s more frightening, more painful than a nightmare? It is a memory
that is too pleasant, too beautiful. A nightmare, you can wake up to
it, don’t think about it, and that’s the end of the story. A memory
that is too beautiful, however, you can neither ignore it, nor erase
it; but you realize that you cannot turn back time, that you cannot
return to “that moment”; and the very same realization is like a
gruesome hand always trying to squeeze your heart to a halt, over and
over again.
Have you ever considered forgetting that memory? But you can neither
forget, nor give it up.Tonight I have been thinking about “her” again. I wonder if she is
living happily; if her studies are going smoothly; if she, like I, thinks
about life in high school and becomes sleepless from time to time.- SwordAngel
Comments (1)
And what more painful than after trying desesperately to forget that beautiful memory, the moment your mind takes a bow for whatever reason, the memory rushes back to you and the only possible reaction is to hold on to it, as it brings such warmth and rest to the heart. Some happiness we live and can never forget. But our growth is about finding the way to live with them, and let them carry us to future happiness. Our growth is about falling asleep with such beautiful moments in our minds to awake to an even nicer day.
~*random